Worthiness...

"Always assume the best in any given situation. When you assume the best and the worst happens, it is one fall. When you assume the worst, it is multiple falls towards one potential outcome. This is suffering by our own creation." ~ guides

I was~am the type of person who worries about what was, what is and what will be. So much so, that I often felt~feel anxiety throughout every day. I read once that worry is a prayer to, "...please manifest that which I worry about." Fascinating concept that I found was true in my life. If I worried about money I would often have a week where clients would drop off my books like flies. I would manifest a lack that would show up in my life almost immediately. This made me think that if I am able to manifest lack, couldn't the opposite be true? Could I manifest abundance? It wasn't that easy for me. I really needed to look at my comfort around allowing lack so easily over abundance. When I sat with that question in meditation at my alter, I uncovered a profound sense of unworthiness. I didn't feel I was worthy of abundance...money, love, time, friendship, respect, admiration, comfort, joy, ease. The list was sadly endless.This hit on all points in my life. This was big!

I cannot tell you how many hours I spent at my alter looking closely at how this lack of worth was the source of most of the struggles I had experienced in my life. Instead of believing in myself, I sabotaged most every thought and action I had. I lived by the old adage, "Expect the worst and you will be pleasantly surprised if good happenes and not be as disappointed when it doesn't. " I thought that made sense. I believed that I was being positive and protecting myself from disappointment. What I was actually doing was manifesting lack...suffering. I was praying for my suffering to happen. Bad aligned with my unworthiness.

WOW!

These realizations were shocking to me because I am a relatively positive person. Often one who could see the positive in most every situation. The positive in some of the most hurtful things that had been done to me or that I experienced. A strong woman. How could I not feel worthy? I have no idea, but I didn't.

These deep realizations are always exhilerating to me because know they are uncovering another level of healing. Healing means I am closer to my truth. I sat at my alter and asked for guidance. During this time one of the messages from my guides helped me realign how I looked at things. It was the beginning for real change in my life. It was the starting point for me to remember my worth...

My prayer...

Assuming the worst is a road of constant suffering by my own hand. I let this go. I end this manifestation of lack now. I choose to no longer suffer through my own creation. I choose to assume the best. I choose to create abundance. I choose to see my worthiness of having and creating abundance in all facets of my life. I am worthy.

Each week I send you my love and wish for you peace in your journey. Our journey of balance in mind, body and spirit.

Warmly,

Kat